Chelsey, lately.

well, lately i have been babysitting everyday, studying for this nclex exam for this coming march 14th, and working out! thats pretty much been my daily life! i am just finishing up the first month of the Insanity workout program. i must say, that is a tough work out! for not being in shape at all (due to sitting on my butt all day while i would study during nursing school and taking naps whenever possible) i have done really well! i feel a big difference with my body and muscles! i actually feel like a have abs (under the flab...i guess i could call them "fl-abs" haha!) i am really trying though! i need to feel good in my whites (and i don't mean scrubs!!!)
job searching hasn't gone that well though. i am trying not to be discouraged. most recent graduate nurses (without prior tech positions) don't get a position right away until they pass the nclex. so once that happens, i will *hopefully* get something so i can get started and stop being so nervous about this whole "career-job-out-of-comfort-zone" situation. it has really been hitting me hard! i can't believe i am at the point of my life i have been dreaming about! i am so excited what life is going to bring next! i just need to do it! i have just always been so nervous about change. what scares me the most is rejection and negativity. i know i am going to be a big spaz when i start my nursing career...and in school, they teach about lateral violence and how experienced nurses treat their young and blah blah blah...and that kind of stuff makes me worried! i don't want people to be mad at me or disappointed! and most of all, do something wrong! i am going to be working in the health care field..with people's lives! real lives! but i need to remember my clinical skills. i did real awesome throughout my clinical nursing experience.  the only thing i rarely messed up on was documenting (that is documenting too much!..i love to write novels and use correct wording!) but other than that, i did wonderful.  even with 3 patients. phew thats tough..and one day i will have 5...or 6! oh gosh, can't think about that now! lol

there are some things in life i just need to get over. and i will. i am young and i am learning all about life. its crazy though, to think about one day i will be 40 and maybe have life figured out by then (gosh, i hope). as for now, i still feel 17! i just need to take it day by day.

 i found a quote on Pinterest the other day and it surely relates to my life and stepping out of my "comfort zone" ....it is by Eleanor Roosevelt:

"Do one thing that scares you every day."

as for the wedding planning, (planning -aka "looking on Pinterest"- always cheers me up when i have a crappy mood), i have the date, location,engagement photos, save the dates on the way, photographer, and videographer! as i cross those off my list, i just add more! i just can't wait! 10 months away!

here are some lovely photos my dear friend Ashlyn took of us! she is just getting started in her photography business facebook.com/MKphotography2013 and she did fabulous!

i love my handsome fiancé!

so glad he's mine!

<3

sorry for being m.i.a. again!

A LOT has been going on lately! i have not had a chance to update my blog because i am trying to PLAN A WEDDING! yes....he proposed! i will explain in a few, but yea! it happened! i have also been trying to study and do practice questions because the NCLEX-RN is coming up (March 14th)...oh boy, i am nervous! i just want to get it over with so i can find a job and get started on my career! its been so frustrating being in limbo between ending a stage in my life and getting out of my comfort zone..and into a VERY uncomfortable phase of starting a real adult job! i do not look forward to all of the struggles, but i pray every day for when it comes and i hope that it goes smoothly. until then, i will enjoy every last minute of not having adult responsibilities! it's been nice being out of school.  christmas was amazing (especially because i was engaged! and got to show off this beauty of a ring David picked out...all by himself!) well i suppose i will share the proposal story.  here it goes!!!!
December 13, 2012 was the day we had our pinning ceremony.  Afterwards, we planned on having a graduation party with our close friends and family.  It was such a wonderful party and everyone was so proud of us! While everyone was sitting and eating, my dad starts a little toast and says how proud he is of us for finishing nursing school...David and I are standing up in the front of the room saying thank you...and when he finished, a Mariachi band walked in and started playing! It was so awesome! Everyone was all into it! It was funny because they were singing "Happy Birthday" in spanish...and David says he specifically told them to not sing that song! Haha! So it was cheesy and cute all at the same time! Everyone was clapping along! Then when they finished playing that song, David and I gave each other a great big hug and said "Yay, we did it".  Then, he got down on his knee..everyone started screaming!...we just looked at each other and I said "Ohhh noooo!" really loud haha (meaning I was shocked!...not to say no, don't marry me!) and David says "This is it, baby!" Then stood back up and hugged me soooo tight! He then got back down on his knee, held my hand and stated his love for me! Tears were flowing from his eyes!  I could see them coming down his cheeks in the dim light when the flashes of people's cameras were going off.  He then pulled the ring out of his sock and asked me "Will you marry me?"and I said (like a spastic fool) "yes, yes, YES!" haha then everyone clapped and cheered and ran up to hug us and take pics! Wow, I really felt so special and blessed that night! I have never been the star of the show before and it felt really nice to have our family and friends witness such a wonderful thing! I will never forget the looks on everyone's faces while he was proposing to me! Especially David's mom and sister.  They were so surprised! I will always remember their faces full of tears! We have it all photographed by our amazing friend Dustin Baker.  Here are some pics!

Now I am in the wonderful world of planning a wedding! 

But no worries, I won't become a crazy bridezilla! (Hopefully! haha!)

November 30, 2013 will be the day I become Mrs. Ramos!